I turned 39 last week. I wasn’t going to do much because it’s just 39. But then I thought that it is my last year in the 30’s, it should be celebrated. Then I will have to do another party next year because it is my first year in the 40’s. (I actually didn’t do much anyways, just cake and ice cream which I overate and made myself sick with.)
But it did start me thinking that I’m getting close to mid life. Haha. Well all my grand and great-grand parents lived into their 80’s and beyond so, barring any unforeseen circumstances, I probably have that long.
What do I want my next 40 years to look like? If I continue doing what I am now? If I change some things? Obviously it will be different in the fact that my kids are all growing up and they will move on and have their own families. It will be just my husband and me. Do I want to travel? Do I want to work? What do I want to do?
These past 14 years of my life have been devoted to taking care of babies and kids and a house and husband. I really have neglected myself most of the time. I realized that I can’t just act like a teenager and eat what I want and do what I want or put myself on the back burner forever. I am breaking down already!
So I made some goals. Baby steps to my better future. I have started walking in the morning. It is summer and the sun is up so early. And I love it! I am a sun person. Not necessarily a morning person. Winter kills me because it is so dark most of the time and I struggle to get up when it’s dark. But I’m wide awake at 4:30-5 a.m. in the summer because the sun wakes me up. So I’ve taken advantage. One of my children is charged with watching the sleeping baby while I go to the track and walk a mile or more depending on how long I have.
Other goals? Cutting out the majority of social media and phone use. It really is addicting. The other day my father-in-law was over at my house. He lives in another country and had come for a family reunion. The day before he had waxed poetical (he is a poet and can’t just say something) about how much he wanted to be closer to his family and that he was homesick for them and missed them so much. Then he came to my house and sat with his computer in front of him for hours. It is rare he is without it. My kids were running around playing and my husband and I joined in the fun. He ignored it all and kept his eyes on the screen. He was missing it all. I realized in that moment that would be me if I didn’t make some changes. My kids are growing fast and I don’t want to miss it for anything.
So yes, blogging is social media and I will still use it because it is how I stay connected to family and friends and keep up on current events. But I will cut out the mindless scrolling, games, and constant checking.